this is for you girl.

guess it's the time of the month where i write the usual touching and mushy stuff abt you haha.anw it has been 19 months since the wee hours of the morning of 17th feb 2008.that moment when i decided to ask you to be my gf.

i still rmbr it like it was ytd.i still rmbr your vague reply where you said you're taking a big leap.i still rmbr how happy i was.how fast 19 mths has passed since then.

i was sitting in the office this morning, thinking.i can't believe i've gone 19 months with you, sherilyn.i'm amazed because never did i thought that this relationship would last this long.we've gone through the happiest of times and the roughest patches together.we've done the darndest and call each other names.hell, we've even broken up a few times.

but one thing is for sure.i'm thankful for everything.

i'm thankful you happened to me, and gave me probably the most topsy turvy 2 years of my life.i'm thankful to have you as mine for 19 months.and never did i regret every moment spent with you during this period of time.

with me being in ns now and you still working for now, we can't meet up as often as we like.that is why i've learn to treasure every little moment we can spent together, however short it is.and i've learned to treasure you even more than ever.

which is, mostly due to the fact that i tend to get so sad and lonely in the morning in camp due to unfamiliar faces.not forgetting the boring army directives i've to study.

but you.

you're the thought that keeps me gg through the day.i realise i really do miss you so bad whenever i think of you.your smile.your eyes.your messy hair.your soft and small pair of hands.the havaianas sandals and reebok jacket you used to wear.the way you talk.the way you walk.the funny noises you make.the way your nose crinkle when you pout.the way you put my arm ard your waist.the way you laugh.the way you cry.the way you drag me to the shops you go.the shy smile you have whenever you come out of the changing room.the look on your face whenever you're annoyed.the grey baggy lee (or was it giordano?) jeans.all the songs that you've dedicated or sang to me.

it's during such times i realise how impt you are to me.you complete me.without you it seems like something's missing.like how things just becomes dull and less interesting.i confide and share everything w you, my joy, my fears, my insecurities.

you're the only person who sees me in a way no one else does and you love me like no other.you showed me what it's like to love and be loved, which is one thing i'm grateful for.

they say ns is a test of your relationship.i truly hope it strengthens our relationship.make us both realise that we're past the stage of arguing over the little things.to think ahead and see the consequences of our actions whenever we were to start flaring up again.

and being in the army gives me so much time to think, think about everything and anything possible.

what would our future hold for us?will we still be together many years down the road?will we find another soulmate?will we eventually one day get married and settle down?many questions with no certain answers.

but i promise you one thing.no matter what the future brings, know that you're my first love.know that i'll love you forever.know that i really wanna be with you , through every argument we will have, through every joy we will share and through every moment when you just need to hold on to someone dear.i'll be there.

because you've been there for me, through it all.

happy 19th month, sherilyn.